A Lot Like Love

I was alone, used to standing strong
Always feeling like I never quite belonged
I drifted from day to day and place to place
Looking for that special something in every passing face
I didn't find it, and thought I never would
I learned to settle for less, and called it good
But one night out, I met you
And somehow, something in me knew
I had found something both precious and rare
I was drawn to you, but I was also scared
Filled with desire, joy and hesitation
I tried my very best to control the situation
But the attraction ended up controlling me
I got so high off of you that I could no longer see

I found comfort in your arms
Acceptance in your eyes
Pleasure in your charm
Truth instead of lies
We somehow fit together like hand in glove
In so many ways, it was a lot like love

Time flew by, as it always will
Eventually that high went straight downhill
I started focusing more on the negative things
And felt the restlessness that constant togetherness can bring
I liked to read and you liked to watch TV
You preferred to play basketball while I preferred to ski
I liked to push and you liked to pull
I became empty of desire while you still remained full
Soon enough, we were limping along
Our bond grew so weak, when once it had been so strong
On so many issues we couldn't agree
You wanted a commitment, but I wanted to be free
I made the decision to let you go
And it was harder to do than you will ever know...

I had found comfort in your arms
Acceptance in your eyes
Pleasure in your charm
Truth instead of lies
We used to fit together so well, like hand in glove
In so many ways, it had been a lot like love

Being alone again eventually turned to being with someone new
And one day my thoughts turned to the past, as thoughts sometimes do
I started to remember all of the fun you and I had had
And I realized that all of the bad times weren't really so bad
Time and perspective allowed me to see things more clearly
I had made a mistake, and it had cost me dearly
I reached out to you, but you had moved on
That bond we once had was truly gone
I wished that I could take so much back
I wished that I could again travel that bygone track
Because you had been the closest thing to perfect for me
You weren't just what I wanted, but what I had NEEDED you to be
All I could do was let go and wish you the best
And work on relieving the pain that burned down deep in my chest

I had found comfort in your arms
Acceptance in your eyes
Pleasure in your charm
Truth instead of lies
We used to fit together like hand in glove
But I realized too late, that it had truly been love © All Textual Rights Reserved by Kristiana Bennett

Dedicated to B.T.C.